In the Hedge

On some fronts its been a great week....on some its been a week I am glad is over.

One thing for sure. God is present. Its like I walk around and sense Him all over on every side. Quite a lot happening as I feel all my insides are on the proverbial operating table. Its like every fabric of my being is being ripped apart and oddly?.............it feels pretty friggin good!!

Work is boring. My passion is elsewhere. My manager knows it. I told him. No biggie. Many people feel that way. I just happen to admit it. I want out. I want to do bigger things. Its all a matter of how that will come about. I dont care too much. I am in the hedge. I am where I need to be. I am doing what I need to do. When its time for me to move. I will be somewhere else. I have never been in control of the ship anyway. Just a fortunate......may I say...very fortunate participant.

That is not to say I dont have some affect on things. That would be stupid. My decisions matter. My actions affect and move things. Its just things are so much bigger than me. And its ok. I am in good hands. I have learned from MANY experiences to trust that. And from MANY experiences that it is GOOD to rely on it.

OK I am making no sense.....to some at least......so back to earth.....

Chicago was cool in that I met my guitar teacher and mentor. My playing is absolutely exploding. I am learning so much and it is absolutely killer. I am free from the mold. I am free to from my own limitations in many ways now more than ever. And it is getting pretty fun.

Well my dad is in town......we got together tonight. It was really cool. I only wish we could do more time together. Kinda sucks we live so far apart.

Anyway much more going on but I am tired.

Later,
Randy